Loosing steam... and reaping what you sow...

Last week was a really great 'get back at it' kind of home school week. This week, not so much.

The boys go to a resource centre through our school on Tuesday mornings, and the rest of the week just fell apart after that (like who seriously starts their Friday's home school at 3pm and thinks that their kids are going to be overjoyed at doing a spelling test?). Oh, especially when you say that on Saturday we're going to make up for mommy not getting her act together and sleeping through the alarm?!??!

It's great that we're doing these awesome bible lessons everyday that we get around to home schooling- but I'm wondering about the other days as well as the actual working out, character wise, of what we're learning. I want them to think that DAILY time with God is just something that you do- always- not just on certain days or when you feel like it/get around to it.

Probably the biggest hindrance is me and my attitude- it's been really bad lately. My oldest was giving me attitude this afternoon and I responded with the 'if you give me grief you're going to have a REALLY miserable day tomorrow', to which he replied 'isn't there something in the bible about revenge?'

Talk about reaping what you sow.

So really, what is my problem? I keep telling the kids that it doesn't matter how tired or sick you are or what anyone did to you- you still have a choice of how you're going to react. I guess I need to start practicing more of what I preach ;-( It's been said that 'if momma ain't happy, ain't nobody gonna be happy', yet I like how someone changed it: if momma ain't happy then momma needs to change her attitude! But how do I change my attitude?

I have so much to be grateful for, yet I get peeved about the stupidest things. I'm jealous of how good I think other people are doing and/or what they have that I don't and as a result I am ungrateful for the many, many, many blessings that I do have. And then I wonder why my kids are whiny and ungrateful to each other and myself. I'm reaping what I'm sowing.

But it's not all bad- child #2 managed to read 'Go, Dog, Go' almost all by himself this week. And the conversations that we've had about God and life- would never have happened if we weren't on this journey.

My very first week back in September was really bad. This one was almost as bad for my sucky attitude. I got over it last time- I just have to pray and work at getting over it again. I want to reap a harvest of righteousness- so I better get sowing seed of righteousness...